LJ has kind of fallen off my radar, at least the updating aspect. Then again, most of my blogs are in slow-mo right now. I've had my twitter for a couple years now, but for some reason it seems now EVERYONE has one. It's much easier for me to update there, so I guess that would be the place to go if you want updates, up to the minute, even!
:)
- Location:work
- Location:work
- Music:ANTM season 2, episode 10
props to Ceci for finding that...
and check THIS shit out!!!!!!
this is the ORIGINAL UNDOCTORED SPEECH
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7qW1bgcf
he's talking ONLY about MCCAIN'S POLICIES, and doesn't even MENTION PALIN!!!!
and check THIS ONE out now!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1X03m-vX
some right wing NUTJOB doctored the video to make it look like Obama is slandering Palin...RIDICULOUS!!!!!!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1X03m-vX
and OMG, calling a woman SWEETIE? my DAD does that and it's just cuz he's old school, not cuz he's MISOGYNISTIC!!!
the rest of the video where Palin "defends" herself is basically saying "I'm a mother, I have a child with Down Syndrome (which may or may not be hers, evidence points to it being the son of her then 16 year old daughter who is now pregnant again) so you should vote for me"
well, Palin, I have a husband who got laid off and after a year of marriage I still live with my parents because I can't afford to get out of here. I have it kinda rough. Should people vote for me, too?
EVERYONE PLEASE MAKE SURE YOU VOTE!!! if you drive, have a job, are saving up for a house, go to school....this election DIRECTLY AFFECTS YOU!!! please do your part to MAKE A CHANGE!!! even republicans must agree that the economy and the way we're all struggling to make ends meet is NOT ok...
VOTE FOR CHANGE!!!!
slapped the back of my head
and made me stand in the corner
for not knowing the difference
between persimmon and precision.
How to choose
persimmons. This is precision.
Ripe ones are soft and brown-spotted.
Sniff the bottoms. The sweet one
will be fragrant. How to eat:
put the knife away, lay down the newspaper.
Peel the skin tenderly, not to tear the meat.
Chew on the skin, suck it,
and swallow. Now, eat
the meat of the fruit,
so sweet
all of it, to the heart.
Donna undresses, her stomach is white.
In the yard, dewy and shivering
with crickets, we lie naked,
face-up, face-down,
I teach her Chinese. Crickets: chiu chiu. Dew: I've forgotten.
Naked: I've forgotten.
Ni, wo: you me.
I part her legs,
remember to tell her
she is beautiful as the moon.
Other words
that got me into trouble were
fight and fright, wren and yarn.
Fight was what I did when I was frightened,
fright was what I felt when I was fighting.
Wrens are small, plain birds,
yarn is what one knits with.
Wrens are soft as yarn.
My mother made birds out of yarn.
I loved to watch her tie the stuff;
a bird, a rabbit, a wee man.
Mrs. Walker brought a persimmon to class
and cut it up
so everyone could taste
a Chinese apple. Knowing
it wasn't ripe or sweet, I didn't eat
but watched the other faces.
My mother said every persimmon has a sun
inside, something golden, glowing,
warm as my face.
Once, in the cellar, I found two wrapped in newspaper
forgotten and not yet ripe.
I took them and set them both on my bedroom windowsill,
where each morning a cardinal
sang. The sun, the sun.
Finally understanding
he was going blind,
my father would stay up all one night
waiting for a song, a ghost.
I gave him the persimmons, swelled, heavy as sadness,
and sweet as love.
This year, in the muddy lighting
of my parents' cellar, I rummage, looking
for something I lost.
My father sits on the tired, wooden stairs,
black cane between his knees,
hand over hand, gripping the handle.
He's so happy that I've come home.
I ask how his eyes are, a stupid question.
All gone, he answers.
Under some blankets, I find three scrolls.
I sit beside him and untie
three paintings by my father:
Hibiscus leaf and a white flower.
Two cats preening.
Two persimmons, so full they want to drop from the cloth.
He raises both hands to touch the cloth,
asks, Which is this?
This is persimmons, Father.
Oh, the feel of the wolftail on the silk,
the strength, the tense
precision in the wrist.
I painted them hundreds of times
eyes closed. These I painted blind.
Some things never leave a person:
scent of the hair of one you love,
the texture of persimmons,
in your palm, the ripe weight."
-- Li-Young Lee
- Location:work
- Mood:
romantic, excited, and tired
cursed, as in the female curse*Having to reschedule court dates is a pain in my ass.
*I need to get a Dade ID immediately for my 2-20 exam.
*Reading other people's blogs is fun. I don't know enough bloggers.
*I wish I was at home cuddling wth my cat.
*My cell phone doesn't work. I hate AT&T.
*I wish ovaries came with an OFF switch cuz cramps suck.
*The weather is nice today. Weird. Hope it's this nice for my shoots this weekend.
*I REALLY want a new point-and-shoot. I can't believe how expensive they are.
*I need to buy some color film so I can play with my neglected 35mm cameras.
*I wish it was Christmas. IDK why. I feel very "'Tis the Season" right now though.
*UGH. that is all.
- Location:work
- Mood:
heartburn-y and cramp-y - Music:ANTM cycle 2 ep. 2
ugh.
- Location:work
I'm referring, of course, to the darling little hater that took it upon themselves to send me a myspace note yesterday "Annonymus"-ly (again, a direct quote) to tell me just how much I suck as a photographer. according to them, they have been photographing professionally for years, and think I am an embarrassment to the realm of photography as a whole. to which I replied, "it must be sad to have such slow business as a photographer that you have time to preoccupy yourself with my atrocious work. and you misspelled anonymous." or something along those lines.
I must admit I was a little ticked off at first. but then I thought about it and realized...I know a few photographers whose work is not great. because it's not great, I am not threatened, therefore I say and do nothing. On the other hand, if I see someones work that I admire, I might ask a few technical questions to get some ideas and perhaps learn. Of course, this involves (as an indirect side effect) me admitting someone has more skill than I. I would never waste my time sending someone a hateful rant littered with "justifications" of "i don't mean to hurt your feelings, but (insert overly harsh criticism and foul language here)"
however, I am a more developed human being than some others I have met. For example, hateful rant or not, if I believe strongly enough in an opinion to tell it to ANYONE, I would absolutely sign my name to it, seeing as I do not lack the conviction to stand behind my thoughts. I also find it particularly funny how because of the manner of this person's "advice", I can pretty much tell this is not the kind of person with the testicular fortitude to say, come up to me at an exhibit and criticize my work like a real grown-up. this is a person that might make a snarky remark to their friend at the show (which they'd go to, no matter how horrendous my photos, just to gain ammo) and then maybe blog about my overall awful-ness...
the fact is that even if my work is inferior to this person's (and I'll never know, mostly because they didn't even give me the benefit of letting me critique their work as well) the fact is that this person has the time to sift through each and every one of my photos and come up with their two cents...so if this person IS a photographer, they must not be getting any work, regardless of their "talent". One person found my work so horrible that they took the trouble to make an anonymous page (I still smile whenever I think that someone took that much time just for little ol' me) but guess what...literally HUNDREDS of people have added my page because they LIKE my work, I am booked solid for the next 4 months, and I have interest from a gallery. People are trusting me with their wedding for crying out loud, and they're PAYING ME for it...so maybe if this person focused more on getting work themselves, they'd be as successful as I and maybe would have less time for making fake profiles.
just a thought.
so I'm meeting the couple in less than 8 hours, and I absolutely feel like throwing up. I am so fucking nervous. I don't remember the last time my stomach was this much in knots. not even on my OWN wedding day did I feel like this...
i'm applying for my 2-20 license right now. have my three day, all day weekend class scheduled for the weekend of the 22nd. ew.
oh! I'm very excited to be working on a calendar...I'm just waiting for the last three girls to confirm, and I'm already hatching up ideas for each month...did I mention I'm VERY excited about this project?
ok, I'm done. I think I might need to puke now =/
- Location:work
- Mood:
anxious
simple, huh? years of drugs, and all it took was precisely this thought to get me to stop.
i guess someone else out there felt the same way.
and yes, I'm talking about YOU. every last one of you.
deuces, haters..
- Location:home
- Mood:
accomplished - Music:"Tears Don't Fall" - Bullets for my Valentine
there's this photographer who's also based in Miami, and whose work, I might add, is photoshopped crap in my opinion, who added me a couple months back. no mutual friends, but that's fine, he's just another photographer looking to see what's on the scene...no big deal.
Then he worked with a model I worked with right after I had a shoot with her. "Good for her!", I thought. She really wants to be a pro model, and the fact that other photographers are picking her up means she might have something good going for her...
now, TWO MORE of my models (one of my regulars, no less) is on his page...being represented as nothing more than photoshopped crap, like all his other "work"...I guess I shouldn't be upset or feel betrayed that the regular in particular is using other photographers while still using me, I guess it helps diversify her book or something, though I wouldn't use any of his photos for a portfolio, but that's just my opinion. but I do feel a little betrayed. especially since I had a shoot with her over the weekend and she didn't even mention it. Like she was hiding it on purpose.
now, when I see these photos, like I said, I got upset. so I do some investigating. turns out this guy is going through my friends list and adding my people! it could be a coincidence that he all of a sudden knows all these people, seeing as Miami is such a small place (HA!) but my feeling is that the guy is trying to steal my book of business, pretty much.
I ask my regular if he approached her, because I think he might be trying to snatch up my clients from my very friends page, and she completely lets the question fly over her head. now I KNOW something is up...
I emailed another friend of mine who is now on his list and asked who initiated the online "friendship"...but even if it turns out he IS adding all my friends, what should I do? I am so LIVID right now, I actually had a cigarette last night when all this went down.
FOR SURE i'm not EVER doing another free shoot again. people take advantage of my niceness and even this regular of mine who I thought was a friend is sneaking around behind my back, because the way I see it, if she didn't feel she was doing something wrong, why wouldn't she just own the question and answer like a big girl?
UGH.
I'm not underhanded and manipulative enough for this business. or any other, it seems.
- Location:work
- Mood:
aggravated - Music:dad talking, printer printing
2) ordered fun new toys
and...
3) T Lo has officially started his bid in prison, I've resolved to write him at least once a week...
4) did my first "studio" set-up (albeit a crappy, rushed one)
5) did a HOT shoot with Jennie (check out WAY more at gurlkaleidescopeeyes.deviantart.com)
I NEED SLEEP IN ORDER TO FIGHT OFF THIS COLD, DAMMIT!!!
:ugh:
that is all for now...
can't wait!!!
also, HAPPY 22nd KARY!!!!
from today at Ana and Greg's...
the birthday girl with her erect blow thing (i brought Little Mermaid party favors, and as I figured she liked those better than the MAC gift card I got her LOL)
The Birthday Weekend Couple (Jessi's birthday is tomorrow...actually today!)
the crew! (picture by Kenny, hence his notable absence)
- Location:home
- Mood:
bouncy - Music:"Stupid Motherfucker" - MSI
"well, 'got' is a rather loose way of putting it lol
It's incredible, I never realized how much work (and MONEY) needs to go into one of these things...next he wants to see more work to see which direction we can market the show, and he wants me to think of how we can turn some of my photos into greeting cards and t shirts lol
it's def. a work in progress, but it's happening!!!"
He wants to see at least 50 pictures! I knew I was being conservative just showing him 12, but I didn't think he'd want to see that many...I guess it makes sense as far as him really getting a feel for my style.
I told him I'd see him in a month anyways, that I would just bring more work then...and he reminded me about the GLBT event they're having in September, so if anything I'll show him some stuff then.
I'm very excited that he actually wants to work with me! most of the meeting was spent giving me advice and showing me how best to market myself so I can be successful in the field. I told him I wouldn't even know where to begin with marketing, because it had never occured to me to sell my work...I just want people to see it and appreciate it. He totally shut me up when he said, "well, what greater compliment can an artist receive than someone saying 'I appreciate this piece so much, that I am willing to pay just for the privelage to hang it in my home and share it with the people I love'"...melts your little frozen over heart, don't it? =)
in other news...my eyes are stingy, red and teary. I am hugely sleep deprived. my sleep cycle has been screwy for the past few weeks. I also have a tremendous earache and think I might be fighting a losing battle against a summer cold. ugh.
I can't wait till 6 to get home and sleep, further perpetuating my fucked-up sleep cycle...
t minus 8.5 hours.
wish me luck.
<3
- Location:work
- Mood: sick
- Music:deafening silence (an oxymoron!)
idk what to wear!!! ACK!
I'm excited, but I'm more nervous because I'm sure they're not going to want to use my stuff for their gallery...I don't think my stuff is edgy enough for the feel of the rest of the art in the gallery, but hopefully I'm wrong.
urg. I hunger.
ok. i'm off.
- Location:work
- Mood:
hungry - Music:Project Runway season 2, ep. 6
LOVE IT OR PERISH!!! lmao
<3
- Location:our steamy ass no A/C having room...
- Music:Kenny watching Star Trek...ugh...
- Location:in bed watching scrubs
- Mood:
stuffed with hot wings - Music:"dancing queen" (mamma Mia commercial)
yay! April is officially BOOKED, and its only the first of the month!
so, who's down to shoot in May? ;D
- Music:ANTM cycle 10, episode 6
so, I shall virtually window shop...
someone please buy me (lol):
this
this too please
and this
kthx
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